My mom was recently admitted to the hospital with internal bleeding. They were thinking that maybe an artery got punctured when a tissue sample was taken the week before. She was being given blood and waiting. Waiting for the next day when they would go in and look around, and hopefully find and solve the problem. While they waited I worried. I was thinking about how another family member had not fared well under a similar circumstance. I was 1,000 miles away and in a state of anxiety. Running rehearsals for impending disaster.
After about a half hour of fretting something came over me. And I started thinking that maybe it was wrong to focus on what happened to my mother’s family member, what happened in her physical family line. I began to feel a challenge before me. A challenge to focus on her heavenly heritage instead of her earthly one.
I got my Bible out, but wasn’t sure where to turn. I was looking for the passage about the people walking in darkness seeing a great light when I stumbled upon these words of Isaiah in chapter 8. The Lord has given me a strong warning not to think like everyone else does. I was gripped. I felt the words were for me. I felt like God was warning me to think about him, to think like his child. I flipped over to the Psalms looking for words about my spiritual heritage. I found these in Psalm 77 (NLT) Oh God your ways are holy. Is there any god as mighty as you? You are the God of great wonders! You demonstrate your awesome power among the nations. By your strong arm, you redeemed your people… When the Red Sea saw you, O God, its waters looked and trembled! The sea quaked to its very depths… Your road led through the sea, your pathway through the mighty waters- a pathway no one knew was there! Wow.
I could rehearse human frailty or I could recite Holy wonders. That would be my choice going forward. It took me a moment to realize that it would not be an insult to my mother if I chose not to worry and fret my way through this. That instead it would honor God, invite Him in. It would be one way I could “prepare Him room” this season. And wasn’t that what I had been singing about?