Just As He Said

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Jesus’ disciples should have known what was coming that morning, they really should have.  Jesus told them he would be raised to life after three days, so why wasn’t everyone hanging around the tomb on that Easter morning, excited, expectant?  Why were his followers somewhere else, cowering, despairing, disappointed, afraid?  Maybe for the same reason I hide, or cower, despair and fear…  Because I don’t believe what Jesus has said.  If I did, wouldn’t I be near that tomb, standing in that hard place?  That difficult place that whispers, “This thing is over with, it’s sealed, dead.”

Thankfully, the resurrection of Jesus never depended on his follower’s faith in his words.  Thankfully there was no belief meter deciding if everything came true, deciding if he would come through for doubters and skeptics and flagging friends and misguided enemies…  Jesus said he would rise and he did.  He did it in spite of the frowns, suspicions, and sealed tomb.  With no help from a cheering section or venture capitalist, he rose.  Just as he said.

And then, it gets better.  He walks through the doors people were too scared to open and says, not “What’s wrong with you, why didn’t you believe me?”  Not, “Well, you don’t get much now after the way you behaved.”  No.  He walks through doors people were too scared to open, passes right through walls they’ve been hiding behind, and says, “Peace be with you!”  Halleluiah, what a Savior!

Makes me want to run to the tomb, doesn’t it you?  Makes me want to run to that hard and sad and carefully guarded, sealed, dead thing and stand there.  Stand there all alone if I have to, waiting, for the third day.  Waiting, because I’ve learned that Jesus will do… just as he said.    

                       “He is not here; he has risen, just as he said.”  Matthew 28:6 NIV

I’m Here for You

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One thing the cross teaches us is not to flee when things get hard.  On the cross Jesus was showing us that he could endure when things were tough.  That he could be there for people, though they abandoned him, disappointed him, rejected him.  Jesus knew how to stay when staying was hard.  It’s the nature of God.  Though it pains him, he will keep his promise of love.

Faithful love.  It’s what we all want.  Sometimes we suffer because people are unfaithful in their love for us.  Sometimes we suffer trying to faithfully love others.  Either way, all is solved at the cross.  Jesus goes first in giving and forgiving.  And if we follow him, he gives us strength to do the same.

Remember, in your worst moments, Jesus is with you.  He won’t leave your side.  Ever.  He’s not there because he has to be, he’s not grudgingly hanging around, he’s not tapping his foot or glancing at his watch.  He really loves you.  He wants to be with you.  Even if no one else does.  Do you truly know that?  If so, then you are ready to share it.

Is there some tough place in your world that Jesus intends to show up through you today?  Is there somewhere he’s calling roll hoping you’ll say “I’m here”?

                                          “Love each other as I have loved you.”   John 15:12  NIV

 

Prepare for Your Big Day

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As God’s people approached the Promised Land 12 spies were sent out to survey it.  Upon returning 10 spies said, “It’s true. The land does flow with milk and honey and the fruit is enormously good!  BUT, our worst enemies live there and we are as small as grasshoppers compared to them.  We cannot enter, we’ll be devoured.”  The other 2 spies said, “Yes, the land is gloriously good, and the enemy is daunting.  BUT, the Lord is with us.  Don’t be scared!”  Of the 12 spies, only those 2 lived to enter the Promised Land.

I have wondered what made those 2 spies different.  I mean, everyone had been on the same trail through the very same wilderness.  Everyone ate the same food and had the same water to drink.  So what gives?

I think those 2 spies were just different all along.  I think that when manna fell from heaven for the umpteenth time and others were saying, “Not again” or “Same old same old” those 2 said instead, “Thank you.”  I think when the people were really thirsty and Moses struck that rock and everyone cried out, “Finally!  We were dying of thirst!” those 2 said instead, “Wow.  Awesome.”  I think when those wilderness wanderers encountered yet another hardship and the general population complained, “Let’s turn back!” or “Why did we ever come out here?” those 2 said instead, “Lord, help us.”  I think that day by day those 2 spies had responded in faith (gratitude, awe, and prayer) to all the smaller things, so that when it came time for the big thing, they were ready. 

We really do prepare for our big moments and big days, in small moments today.     

Whoever is faithful in small matters, will be faithful in large ones.   Luke 16:10 GNT

The Foretaste

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My three year old niece loved it when her extended family sat down together for a meal.  It didn’t happen very often.  So when everyone reached out to hold hands and sing the blessing she would not close her eyes.  Instead she looked around the table from person to person beaming as all who gathered sang the song that goes, “Praise God, from whom all blessings flow, praise Him, all creatures here below…”  When the song prayer ended she said not “Amen,” but “Again!”  And so the family would sing the prayer once more.  And once more that three year old beamed, delighted in each person, and drank in the moment.  She knew her time was short.  Two times was the limit for the song prayer.  Soon hands would unclasp, pick up forks, and dig in “before the food gets cold.”

What touched my little niece’s heart in that moment?  What brought such joyful contentment to a normally active, searching, and “on the go” little soul?  I think it was the foretaste of heaven.  Her loved ones had traveled from near and far to sit at one table, God was praised, and needs were met in a beautiful way.  There was unity, fellowship, and loving connection.  Heaven will be like that.  One day God’s whole family will gather.  People will come from one end of the earth to the other and sit down for a glorious celebration, a great feast, the marriage supper of Christ and his followers.  Fellowship, unity, loving connection…  Will we all join hands on that day as we sit around the table of the Lord?  Will we smile at each other as we sing, “Praise God, from whom all blessings flow, praise Him, all creatures here below…”?  Will a glad voice cry out “Again!”?  Maybe so!

Many will come from the east and the west, and will take their places at the feast with Abraham, Isaac and Jacob in the kingdom of heaven.  Matthew 8:11 NIV

 

Chapter 2: Ndapita (“I’m Going”)

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There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven… a time to plant and a time to uproot…  Ecclesiastes 3:1-2  

I was attending the University of Minnesota, living at home and working to pay my tuition (my father did not believe in school loans).  It was getting late and my mom stopped by my room.  I was out of sorts and began complaining to her about how all my friends were leading such exciting lives.  They were studying in Switzerland or taking European vacations while I seemed to be forever sitting at my desk, trying to concentrate on my books, scratching my brain for something to write in my papers.  My mother simply said, “Your day will come.”

And it did.

Dr. Keller, principal at The American Embassy School of Lusaka, invited me to Eau Claire, Wisconsin for an interview.  He asked me to bring one of my parents along so he could be sure I had my family’s support.  My dad drove me to the meeting.  We met Dr.Keller and his wife Madge at a McDonalds.  There he asked his second, though no less unusual, interview question.  “You’re not running away from anything are you?”  He caught me by surprise.  I hesitated.  He went on, “Sometimes people apply for a job overseas to escape something unpleasant in the states- you know a break up, a debt, a problem of some kind.  You aren’t running away from anything like that are you?” 

“No.” I said.

He looked at my father for confirmation.

“She’s not,” my dad said.

“Does she have your support in going overseas?” Dr. Keller asked.

“Yes, she does,” my dad assured him.

“Good, it’s best that way.” Dr. Keller replied.

Then Dr. Keller was reaching for something.  It was an envelope, not an envelope of questions or paperwork, but of… photos, snapshots.  In the blink of an eye Dr. Keller was smiling and spreading before us pictures of beautiful animals and landscapes, talking about Africa’s big five (lion, leopard, elephant, buffalo, rhino) and regaling us with stories of game drives and of the unusual things he’d found in the African markets.  Of course he showed us a few pictures of the school also.  After that there was a discussion of timelines and traveling details. And before I knew it I was picking up a pen and signing a two-year contract to teach 2nd grade at The American Embassy School of Lusaka, Zambia.  I couldn’t believe everything had happened so fast.  Or gone so smoothly.

On the way home my dad took me to the government building in downtown Minneapolis so I could get a passport.  I had four weeks to get packed and ready to travel overseas for my new job.           

People reacted to the news with all kinds of remarks.  “You?  Going to Africa?” one said in utter disbelief.

“Yes,” I nodded a bit embarrassed, as if I had won some kind of contest and couldn’t believe it myself.

“That’s awfully far away,” another said wistfully.

“Did you know there’s a war in Mozambique?!” a person at work barked. “That’s like people killing each other in Wisconsin!”

Oh well, I thought.

There were lots of questions too.  “Are you afraid?”

“A little.”

“Will you be going on a safari?”

“Yes.”

I knew I was an unlikely person to go overseas and live.  I had never traveled out of the country and, well, I had never really even been interested in other countries, or, I’m ashamed to admit, other cultures.  Growing up it was my twin brother who watched Big Blue Marble and read old National Geographics.  I watched The Brady Bunch and looked at fashion magazines.  And my brother was the adventurous one.  When we went skiing he flew off jumps and did summersaults.  I always held back and looked forward to drinking hot cocoa in the chalet.  I had never been outgoing either.  With friends I was fine, but in other social settings I was nervous and insecure about meeting new people.  I never knew what to say.  One friend had labeled me a hermit, another, a hopeless romantic.  And my former boyfriend, when he learned of my African dream, declared “You can’t go to Africa, you can’t live without Daytons!” (Daytons was the upscale department store I had worked at and shopped at when I could afford it).  I knew living in Africa would be a stretch for me.  But I also knew that if God himself had made a way for me to go, he had to have a plan to help me live there.

Soon there were 2 large crates in the middle of my parent’s family room.  Everyone, including the cat, watched as I began to fill them up.  I took everything- teaching supplies, textbooks and favorite novels, my sewing machine, the patchwork quilt my grandmother made, two years worth of toothpaste and other toiletries, cassettes tapes and a tape player, even the duck head book ends I got for Christmas, the ceramic ballet shoes that hung on my wall and the beautiful purple Laura Ashley shoes I had recently worn as the maid of honor in Hannah’s wedding.     

I got a years worth of malaria pills and a bunch of vaccines as well, cholera, typhoid, polio, yellow fever, tetanus, diphtheria, plus a gamma globulin shot to boost my immune system.  After each dose or injection, a note was made in the immunization booklet I was told would be asked for and inspected.        

About two weeks before I was to leave, I went in for my final immunization and a problem arose.  The nurse refused to give it to me.  She said that too little time had elapsed since my last shot.  My mother pressed her, but she would not budge.  I had to cancel my flight and delay my departure.  Not only that our travel agent told my dad, who was handling all the logistics for me, that she could not find any other flights that would get me to Lusaka in time to start work.  I was upset and anxious.  And I am sure I was getting on my family’s nerves.  Rarely did I handle an emergency with the composure of my policeman father and registered nurse mother.  “We must pray,” my mother entreated.  Then she sat me down and prayed like she always had, no dramatics, just simple statements about who God is and what it was we needed.  Moments later my dad called.  He managed to find me the flights I needed by calling several airlines on his own.  “Remember this moment,” my mom said emphatically, and with tears in her eyes, “God can do anything!  If your earthly father cares for you this much, think how much more your Heavenly Father cares.”  I would indeed, remember that moment.                 

Soon I was looking with sorrow at the landscape I loved.  The oaks and maples I’d known my whole life would change color and lose their leaves without me.  Their empty branches would stack with snow and create the winter fairyland I loved.  The lakes would freeze for someone else’s skates.  The hills would hide under deep blankets of snow to be marked by another’s boots or skis or sleds.  I would miss it.

People as well would go on through the patterns of their days and years without me.  They would sing happy birthday, carve turkeys, open Christmas presents, count down the New Year, exchange wedding vows, and have babies… all without me.  I would miss it.         

My friends threw a farewell party for me and it was perfect.  They served cake decorated with a big pink Africa on it.  There were carved wooden necklaces and safari shirts.  Newspaper torches peppered the lawn and hand stenciled African animals hung like clothesline.  I felt so loved.  Is it okay to say I felt like a star?  I did.  We ate, we laughed, we danced, and then it was over.  A chapter ended.  I had a plane to catch.       

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A Chance

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This year, for the first time in my life I felt I was to observe Lent.  I found an Ash Wednesday service and went to it.  The minister talked about how we would now be pilgrims on a journey of repentance, reflection and self-denial.  When he was done talking I followed him and the congregants along a path made of crosses marked out on the floor.  It led to a chapel where we stood in line to approach the minister.  When it was my turn he dipped his finger into a mixture of ashes, made the sign of a cross on my forehead, and declared quite sternly “Remember, from dust you were made and to dust you will return.”  I was surprised by what he said.  I thought he was going to give me a blessing.  Well, maybe it was.  Maybe this reminder of my humanity, this reminder of my humble beginnings, and of my certain and humble end, was a blessing.  I went home pensive.

The next morning I woke up at 4 a.m. with the minister’s words racing through my mind.   “And to dust you will return.”  I was frightened.  My heart sped up.  Am I going to die today I wondered.  Is that why I felt led to the Ash Wednesday service (the first Ash Wednesday service I had been to in my life).  Is that why the minister told me that?  Or… was this instead a Scrooge-like experience.  A chance.  A chance to reflect on my life.  A chance to consider and confess my self-absorbed attitudes and actions, even my self-absorbed prayers.  Maybe this was a chance to try denying myself some of those small things so that I could live a truer, larger, more loving life.  Yes, I think that’s what it was, a chance to see a better way to live.  And give.  A chance to say not just “God bless me” but “God bless us, everyone!”          

                        “For dust you are and to dust you will return.”  Genesis 3:19 NIV  

Ka-linga-linga

Possible Not Impossible

When I was living and working in Lusaka, Zambia there was an area of town known as Kalingalinga.  Kalingalinga was considered a bad and dangerous neighborhood.  And although I drove thru there to get to work each day, I was warned never to go thru there at night.  There was no telling what might happen.  Even the Zambians were afraid of it.  I learned this first hand when a friend of mine gave Huey, a Zambian, a lift home one evening.  For the sake of time, my friend cut thru Kalingalinga.  And even though Huey made jokes about us passing thru there, I could tell he was genuinely uncomfortable (he wasn’t the only one).  The whole time I lived in Zambia I never gave Kalingalinga much thought.  To me it was just a place to avoid or be afraid of.

 Fast forward 22 years.  I am living in Roanoke, Virginia and my husband finds out that some Zambian singers will be performing at our Jefferson Center.  Since he and I met in Zambia, we decided to go and hear them sing for old time’s sake.  The Zambian Vocal Group was delightful.  And their music was so uplifting.  Most of the songs were spiritual and introduced with words of faith.  During the intermission we talked with the group members and bought a CD.

When the concert was over and we were driving home, I did what I always do when I get a new CD, I read the cover jacket.  And as I did, I stumbled across these words, “Our vision is to make a difference in the community we came from.  This community called Kalingalinga….”  I caught my breath astounded.  I felt humbled, convicted, and happy all at once.  A little neighborhood I judged God-forsaken, God had come to.

The concert was over, but the lesson was just beginning.  What was God saying to me?  I think he was saying that every day while I was driving thru Kalingalinga and judging it hopeless, he was speaking a different word over it.  He was saying, “You just watch.  This story isn’t over yet.”  When I read that cover jacket and realized where those singers had come from, it was like God had flashed me a smile and winked.  It was like he was inviting me to find the Kalingalinga in my life today, to find that place I avoid, or fear, or dread.  And instead of doubting, trust.  Maybe even trust enough to stop the car, get out, and join him in turning the tide.

See, I am doing a new thing!  Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?  I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.                                Isaiah 43:19 NIV

 

Click on this link to hear a song from the Zambian Vocal Group   

 

Reader,

Do you have a Kalingalinga story?  I’d love to hear it!    

 

 

Perfectly Knit

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Wanting to make a scarf I went to a small shop for supplies.  I bought some knitting needles and chose a soft yarn in pomegranate red.  Now, imagine with me that while I am delightedly knitting my scarf, it develops an attitude, finds a voice, and begins saying things like…  “What are you making me into?  A little scarf for a little neck?  I’d rather be a sweater.  And who picked this color?  Didn’t you see the yarn with the shimmers in it?  I want to shimmer.  Will I be a long scarf?  Because if I have to be a scarf I want to be a long scarf, a very long scarf.  Will I have a fringe?  All the scarves have fringes.”

Of course my little scarf did not, and could not, say such things.  But if it had, I would have offered this rebuke, “Whoa now, let’s remember something.  I am the knitter and you are my creation.  I like scarves.  Don’t you understand how beautiful you are to me?  I have plans for us.  One day it will be very cold and I will need you.  I will wrap you around that little neck you mentioned and go out in the chilly air and you will keep me warm.  You’ll be perfect.  You won’t be so long that you get caught in my car door or drag on the ground.  And, you will feel nice against my skin.  Shimmery threads can be scratchy.  Besides keeping me warm you will provide a cheerful burst of color in a cold dreary season.”

Have you ever scowled at the way you are made?  Wished you were made of tougher fiber?  Wished you had a more glamorous quality?  Or just wished you were… different?  Your Creator would have you know that he thinks you’re beautiful and that he designed you the way you are for a special purpose.

O Lord, you are our Father.  We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand.  Isaiah 64:8 NIV

David and Goliath: A Battle of Beliefs

bigstock-David-Goliath-4883362When I am facing a battle, whether it’s in my world or in my heart, I often turn to the story of David and Goliath for wisdom and instruction.  You know how it goes.  God’s people have something special and Goliath wants to take it away.  Day and night he intimidates and taunts them.  Morning and evening he goes after the peace in their hearts, the hopes they have for their families, the promises God has given.  God’s people begin living in dread of what might happen.  Until a boy named David shows up and shows them how to win.

David wasn’t bigger and stronger.  He was younger.  And smaller.  He didn’t have a big gun.  And he didn’t have a big bank account.  There was nothing in his possession that appeared impressive.  So what was his secret?  What was it that gave him the power to face and conquer an enemy that had everyone else biting their nails?  His secret was his faith.  And his faith was the victory.

So what did David believe?  First, he believed that God had given him and his people something wonderful, land.  He was sure God wanted them to have it.  And defend it.   “Wait a minute,” David said of his enemy, “Who does he think he is defying God and coming against us?  That’s not right.” (1 Samuel 17:26)

Second, David believed in God’s favor for his people.  He believed in it so much that it didn’t matter what others said.  When Goliath mocked and belittled David, he wasn’t even rattled.  He didn’t get embarrassed and retreat.  He didn’t get enraged and act rashly on his own- and outside of God’s grace.  David believed in God’s favor.

Thirdly, David was convinced that his life was in God’s hands, not his enemies.  So when Goliath calls up with a death threat, David not only answers the phone, he replies with some words of his own.  “Yes you are twice my size.  Yes your sword and your spear and your javelin are enormous.  But none of that matters in a fight like this.  The Lord will win for us.  And when he does, everyone will know that he is real and that he lives among his people.”  Click. End of phone call, beginning of down fall.

What battle are you facing today?  Don’t let your enemy shout you down or talk you out of the life God is calling you to live.

“You come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied.  This day the Lord will hand you over to me, and I’ll strike you down… and the whole world will know that there is a God in Israel.  All those gathered here will know that it is not by sword or spear that the Lord saves; for the battle is the Lord’s.”  1 Samuel 17: 45-47 NIV

Tracks in the Snow

0001We finally got a snow.  I peered out the upstairs window at the end of my hall, looked down at the beautifully blanketed backyard, and was surprised to see animal tracks all over the place.  What shocked me were the rabbit tracks.  They were everywhere.  So that’s what’s really going on around here.  I smiled as I took it all in.  I had no idea so much was happening right in my own backyard.  That’s just one thing I love about snow.  I get to see evidence of all that is going on while I’m not watching or paying attention.  And I am reminded that God is at work in my life more than I realize.

Jesus said to them, “My Father is always at his work to this very day, and I, too, am working.”                                                                                                John 5:17 NIV